Updating you all on the current state of my life could honestly fill up two posts…maybe three. There’s been a lot happening, yet ironically, I have no clear answers. Yet.
Job: I’m still funemployed. I had lunch today with a potential employer and it went pretty well. Apparently, I made the final cut. I’m definitely interested in this opportunity and will be praying a lot about it. So I guess we’ll see. In the mean time, I have been pursuing writing opportunities, helping out when needed at another organization, and volunteering. I keep pretty busy, for a funemployed woman. That could all change, at any moment, so I’m trying to appreciate it while I can.
Living Situation: I have yet to find a new roommate. I had a few prospects, but those fell through, which was extremely frustrating to me. As I tried to figure out why, I realized that I’m kinda over the whole “relying-on-another-person-in-regards-to-your-living-situation” thing.
A year ago, I had a glorified view of moving into my own place. My daydreams of moving out were nothing short of visions of my future roommate and I singing “Kumbaya” together in our perfectly decorated apartment. Yes, I know I can be naive at times.
Now, I am strongly considering finding a place on my own. At this point, I think this is probably my best option, for reasons I will explain in a future post. It’s gut wrenching to think about losing my current apartment, but I simply cannot afford it by myself.
Grandma: I recently learned that my grandmother has a neurological disorder that affects her muscle movement. Last week my mother and I drove down to South Carolina to check in on her. Then we brought her back to Pittsburgh. It’s been great spending time with her, but it’s hard to see her so uncomfortable. She’s lost weight and her energy is lower. The sweet, feisty woman I call “grandma” is aging. She never wants to go out of the house—not even to shop, which is her favorite past time. I plan on spending lots of time with her while she’s here…and convincing her to cook me lots of good southern food (but only if she’s up to it).
Boyfriend: I am constantly amazed by the amount of encouragement and patience he has extended to me in the past few weeks. When I begin to have a nervous breakdown, he’s right there, telling me to calm the hell down and trust God. He may be a scrub, but he’s my scrub. As I realize just how much I don’t have it all together, the more I see that I’m a scrub too. He has a special way of making me feel sane, even though I’m not. Without him (and my mama), I’d be locked up in a padded room somewhere. No joke.
So that is what I’ve been up to. It’s been a bumpy ride lately, but I have this strong feeling that something pretty cool is going to happen soon. Don’t you worry, dear reader, because when it does, you’ll be the first to know about it.
Lindsay
May 14th, 2009 at 9:20 AM
Aww, I hope things start looking up for you! Like that job opportunity, it sounds like it went GREAT! Thanks for commenting on my blog
Thanks! And you’re welcome!
mrs. mary mack
May 14th, 2009 at 9:22 AM
I’m glad your interview went well! Although I’ve found a job for after the fetus’ arrival, I kinda long to be funemployed again! LOL What’s your grandmother’s disorder?
She has something called spasmodic torticollis. I guess her brain moves her muscles in her neck involuntarily. It’s weird. But congrats on snagging a new job…especially so soon. The fetus is lucky to have such a determined and strong mommy.
Maggie
May 14th, 2009 at 9:48 AM
I really hope you get the job, although you’ll miss being funemployed when its over.
My advice to you is if you’re thinking about living on your own- DO IT. It may seem scary or overwhelming to shoulder all of the responsibility, especially finance wise, but in the long run I think you’ll be much happier. What’s your price range and what area? I can tell you some of the places I researched when I was looking to rent.
And last but not least, I’m still keeping your grandma in my thoughts.
Thanks Maggie. Your comment means A LOT. I needed reassurance about my thoughts on finding my own place. I am so scared. The fear is literally making me constantly cry and my neck is so tight. But it feels good to hear from someone who was in a similar position. It gives me courage.
And thanks for thinking of my grandma. I appreciate it.
imerika
May 14th, 2009 at 12:38 PM
I’m praying for my mom who has a job interview tomorrow, you’ll also be in my prayers akirah. When everything else in our life feels like it’s falling apart, I find strength and comfort knowing that my family and faith is there to pull me through.
I know sometimes we defintieyl need our days to sulk, but I always try and remember “If He brings you to it, He’ll bring you through it…this too shall pass”
Yes, I am constantly praying for God to affirm truths to me, before I start to break down. It’s hard to stay strong, but I honestly think that the only reason why I’m feeling so attacked is because something great is about to happen. I just have to be patient. Thanks for the positive thoughts!
MinD
May 14th, 2009 at 5:54 PM
Thanks for the summary update!
I say you live alone. I was scared to do so at first, but there’s so much freedom involved and it’s great knowing you’re only responsible for yourself. There’s also far less stress as you don’t have to worry about your roommate and how he/she will react to anything. Go for it. Try it out. Get a pet for company, ha.
All my best to your grandmother. It’s tough seeing family members no longer invincible like you always felt they were. I’m realizing this now with my grandfather as he undergoes cancer treatment. But we relied on them for so long, maybe it’s time we allow them to rely on us. Hopefully her spirits are still a bit high, and hey, she made that trip with you – what, 500 or 600 miles? – so she clearly has a bit of feist in her yet. Enjoy your time with her!!
And best of luck with this new job opportunity!
Thank you! Ya, my grandma is one tough cookie. I’m a touch cookie too. That’s why I’m gonna get thru all of this.
thatShortChick
May 14th, 2009 at 6:49 PM
I can tell that having to get another place with roomies is going to be MORE difficult for you as more time passes.
Go for living solo – it will do wonders for your state of mind and spirit.
And like I’ve told you before, I’m keeping your grandma in my thoughts. I know what it’s like to have a medical condition completely change your image of a loved one.
Ya, I’m already looking for one bedroom apartments. I think I’ll be much happier in the long run. Change is hard, but it encourages growth.
Nora
May 15th, 2009 at 4:43 PM
Wow! You certainly do have a lot going on. I hope that things go well in the job area.
Many positive thoughts and prayers for your grandma. I can’t imagine how hard that must be to see her like that. Have strength and faith and you will be able to get through.
Isn’t it wonderful to have a great network to fall back on/into when times get tough? Such as the boyfriend and your mom. I’m glad that he’s been there for you… always helps a girl out to know a strong man can help her IF she needs it (not that we do, right? =) )
Have a great weekend,
Nora
You too! And yes, I am blessed to have support. There’s a lot going on right now and it’s nice to know that people love me and got my back. Even my blog friends.
Singlutionary
May 15th, 2009 at 11:55 PM
I’m so funemployed that I’ve gotten lazy about applying for jobs! but I’ll still be glad when i get one. good luck with yours and with everything else!
Thanks!