I wish they had Lamaze classes for twenty-somethings. Instead of learning how to breathe through childbirth, they could teach us how to breathe through our crises. You’ve got to admit there are some striking similarities between childbirth and the quarter-life. Sharp pains, sweating, screaming at other people…these are all ways in which women in labor and people in their twenties manifest their discomfort.
I know I’m exaggerating a bit, but I have discovered a breathing technique that has been extremely helpful to me these past few months. Whenever a friend gets engaged, offered a great job, or secures a kickass apartment, it comes in handy:
I breathe in…DON’T JUDGE.
I breathe out…DON’T COMPARE.
Ridiculously enough, it helps. When I start to feel a “contraction,” I turn to the technique.
“She got married already? Neither of them even have jobs yet!”
DON’T JUDGE.
“She just graduated college a month ago. Why the hell did she find a job before me?”
DON’T COMPARE.
Only after I’ve repeated “don’t judge, don’t compare” a few times am I able to be semi-rational about things. Deep down I know that comparing my life with others’ is like comparing apples with oranges. Even so, that doesn’t make things any less difficult.
I thought about shutting Facebook down for a week or so. Instantaneous updates of the success of my 850 friends are not doing much for me right now. As happy as I am that not everyone’s life is as convoluted as mine is currently, I’ll be the first to admit that misery loves company. So while you’re telling me about your brand new car with leather interior, I may be smiling on the outside, but “don’t judge, don’t compare” is running through my mind on the inside.
I cannot possibly be the only person who struggles with comparing her life to others’, right? Even when things are going seemingly well in my life, I find myself worrying about what other people are doing, rather than focusing on my own goals. I value knowing I’m on the right track, however after seventeen years of being a straight-A student, I’m used to being ahead of the pack. These past few months have put me out of my element.
But now that we’re adults, leading our own lives, maybe it’s not about the pack anymore. Something tells me that those nosy days of “Why her and not me?” are over. Perhaps the best way to ensure you’re living the life you want to live has nothing to do with what other people are accomplishing in theirs. I’m starting to see just how distracting it is worrying about who’s getting married, having babies, buying houses, and getting job offers. Especially since none of my problems are being resolved in the process.
Don’t judge, don’t compare. That’s my technique for next couple of weeks. My hope is that in the midst of all this inhaling and exhaling, I’ll somhow manage to “bring forth” a new beginning of my own. People keep telling me that it’ll all be worth the wait and pain.
TOPolk
June 12th, 2009 at 2:29 PM
“Sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind. The race is long and in the end, it’s only with yourself.”
- Baz Luhrmann
It’s such a hokey little song, but “The Sunscreen Song” has been right more times than I care to admit. Just keep moving forward.
And I know my comment has no direct ties to your post. But trust me, I read it.
No…that’s good Terence. That’s really good.
Nelle
June 12th, 2009 at 3:26 PM
SO know the feeling. I’ve struggled with this so many times. Great technique!!
Thanks! Glad you can relate!
Cindy
June 12th, 2009 at 3:50 PM
I’m gonna have to give this technique a try because I definitely know what you’re talking about!
Good. Let me know how it goes.
imerika
June 12th, 2009 at 5:04 PM
I think I need to adopt this mantra. It’s so fitting. I always compare and I always feel bad about myself…I’m even jealous that you at least get to live on your own! : )
Don’t judge, don’t compare…don’t judge, don’t compare…don’t judge, don’t compare….mmmm
Rolls off your tongue, huh?
Singlutionary
June 12th, 2009 at 5:45 PM
For the past year I have been, at least once a day, sighing a deep deep sigh and shaking my sad little head and moaning out loud the words: What am I doing with my life?
I am almost past quarter-life numerically and most of my friends are oh-so-stable with their established career and their 6 year olds and their spouse of 7 years. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.
But then again, there are is a lot to my life which can’t be measured by a financial stability or marriage-o-meter. Experience is experience.
It is. And it is relative. My life isn’t going to look like yours and yours isn’t going to look like mine. But that doesn’t make either of our lives better than the other.
VintageVelveteen (Nana)
June 13th, 2009 at 11:44 AM
I had a little moment like that yesterday, when I learned my friend was getting married to 1-a girl I never heard of 2-she’s 21 3- She’s Haitian (He’s African, he has always said he will only marry an African girl)… My convo between our other friend, J-E & me went something like this:
Me: WHAT? is she pregnant?
j-E: Why is everyone asking me that?
Me: I can;t believe he’s doing this to me! I was supposed to be the first to marry!!!
J-e: You wanted to marry him/
Me: Nooo. I just wanted to be the first. I can’t believe him!
Yeah. It was kind of pathetic, In fact. I’ll write a post about it, lol.
I just read your post. And it was good.
Andrea
June 14th, 2009 at 10:23 AM
I love this, I seriously need to remember that.
Thanks. It is helpful.
thatShortChick
June 14th, 2009 at 11:38 AM
I had a conversation with one of my friends recently about FB and (possibly!) shutting it down as well because of reasons similar to yours. Although I barely use FB like I used to it can become a breeding ground for such ill will and I don’t want to continue to associate it with that.
One of my breathing techniques or sayings is: “In with anger (inhale), out with love (exhale)” Oddly enough I stole that from an old episode of AbFab (it’s a british series that used to run on ComedyCentral way back in the day).
Yes. I might have to shut it down. Besides, it’s a time waster anyway.
E.P.
June 14th, 2009 at 9:16 PM
I love this technique, and I need to apply it to my life immediately. As someone who was also a good student and generally ahead of the pack in most arenas in life, it’s frustrating for me to see certain things happen for certain people before me. Even if it’s not time for me yet. I just need to remember deep breaths and not to compare.
Ya. It’s all about enjoying the journey and accepting that my journey isn’t going to look like someone else’s.
tb
June 15th, 2009 at 5:09 AM
i think all go through the phase of comparing ourselves to our friends. it is very hard not to during the time in our lives where school, careers, marriage and babies are fresh on our minds. i do believe that maybe it is part of *growing up* and once we begin to feel content about ourselves, our lives and the directions that they are taking we can truly start to not judge or compare. until then, i guess it is just something we should try to at least curb…
I agree. We’re all “starting out,” in a way, and look to each other for reassurance.
katie f
June 15th, 2009 at 2:42 PM
this is GREAT! Even though I’m past quarter-life, these techniques are ALWAYS helpful (my mantra: breath in the calm, breathe out the anxious/anger/jealousy…whatever emotion I’m feeling!). It’s all about retraining our brains to react positively to situations we can’t control and not take the actions of others personally. Thanks for a great post!
You’re welcome. And thanks for commenting!
Susan Pogorzelski
June 15th, 2009 at 7:12 PM
I love this post. Love it. Because my answer to this: “I cannot possibly be the only person who struggles with comparing her life to others’, right? ”
Is this: Right.
For so long I compared myself to others, having pretty much the exact same thoughts as you. “She’s getting married? But I’m ready to settle, too;” “She’s going off to France for a year? Well, yeah, I want to do that;” “She has that dream job? How am I still struggling to figure out what my dream job is?”
It’s that perpetual cycle of wanting others’ successes for yourself — I saw someone else’s success and admittedly envied it, believing that I would be happy with any of those scenarios because that’s what success seemed to be.
That all changed when I began to see that success if relative, that I have my own life and my own path — that I can’t follow someone else’s. I realized that everyone feels like something is missing at one point or another, that there are two sides to every story, that what is envied doesn’t need to be envied. A life isn’t better or worse, it’s just different. And that’s ok.
It’s so hard. So hard. And those Facebook notifications just make it all the harder. But keep working hard, keep breathing, keep on keeping on. You’re absolutely right that you only have one life to live, and that’s your own.
Such an awesome, beautiful post, Akirah. Thanks for the reminder! I would definitely sign up for that class
Kerri
June 16th, 2009 at 8:41 AM
Thanks for this Akirah – such a good reminder, especially with sites like facebook reminding you all the things you DONT have. One thing that has always helped me, is remembering that the grass is always greener on the other side. And just because someone may appear to have it all, no one ever really does.
MinD
June 16th, 2009 at 5:38 PM
Excellent advice and techniques you’ve created for yourself. Whenever I’m in the same situation, I just step back and remind myself that things will happen when they are meant to. Strangely, that’s all I need to keep going.
Julie @ Wearing Mascara
June 20th, 2009 at 12:08 AM
This is GREAT
It’s my new mantra.. thanks for sharing this! You’re not alone!
Nelle
June 23rd, 2009 at 8:57 AM
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Kerri
July 7th, 2009 at 12:16 AM
I have these moments ALL THE TIME. I just have to tell myself that I am on a completely different path than most of my peers – and THAT’S OKAY.
P.S. I just discovered your blog and it’s close to exactly the kind of blog I’ve been looking for. You are in a similar position in life as myself, and it’s just so refreshing to read about someone that is in the same boat.
Amanda
July 21st, 2009 at 1:26 PM
This post is so startlingly accurate! I can’t believe how much of my time I spend focusing more on the lives of other people than on my own life, if I could figure out a way to channel all that energy I would certainly be able to achieve more worthwhile goals more confidence in myself. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!
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